30 Days

Today I asked "Daddy" for 30 more days to contemplate my mentoring contract more. To make sure that it was truly what I wished. After an evening of a frustrating yahoo messenger he told me he didn't have 30 days to give me. He said that he would not mentor me. I cried and asked him to change his mind. I started to feel like I had failed. I asked him questions and he avoided them. He said we were still friends. He said I am not ready. I know better. Events from the past weekend made him jealous. (I'll add that post later this week) He broke it off over the internet. He wouldn't even answer his phone. That was the dead ringer for me. I feel like I should be sad. I feel like I should be distraught. I feel like I should try harder to regain his favor. Truth is, I've known for a while it would never work.

I just finished dancing to Youtube videos.

I'm free. And I am overjoyed.