So another day at the job. Nothing new there. However I was happy to hear my supervisor tell me that she thought I should apply for the senior position. I have only been at my job 10 months and the idea that my supervisors think I have managerial possibilities just lights up my world. Lately, there isn't much that dampens my spirits. Whenever I think of something painful I feel something...someone pull me by the bootstraps and dust me off. I can't remain sad for long lately. These feelings of constant happiness are strange. I have learned to decrease my expose to people who make me upset and it has worked out very well. Its coming up on one year since my split with the ex and it bothers me tremendously. However, this can't...won't be a repeat of last year. After my weekend in Phoenix I feel so enlightened and free. I feel like myself now and I feel ready to
pursue someone who actually wants to be with me. One thing I have found difficult for me to forgive is the nagging feeling that he was looking for way out. The feeling that he was ready to get rid of me long before our incident. I haven't approached him with it. Probably never will. I have my own issues to deal with. This is one of them. But this year has so much wonderment in it that I am almost scared. Scared to be too happy. Finally.
