"I am looking forward to using you"

Those words made my body quiver as I rolled around in the bed this morning, listening to his voice on the other end of the phone.

So how did I get here? LOL Well it started about two days ago when for the upteenth time I had called D and got no answer. So, being the the bored mood I am at times I gave Eric a call and chatted with him for a while until I saw that D was beeping in on the other line. How wonderful is call waiting? I quickly rushed Eric off the phone and answered his call. I hate to admit it and I probably never will to him but his voice...ohh it does something to me! I am such a slut for a man with a sexy voice. He could be ugly physically or hell even spiritually but if he has a sexy voice I will be attracted to him in someway. But in any case we talked for a good long while. He asked for me to describe a fantasy that I wouldnt tell anyone else. Something that was deep and dark and so I did. I won't tell it here of course. After I finished I heard him say in a husky voice "That's beautiful Jessica". It really made me blush. I was surprised the next morning to get a text message from him, followed by a few more during the course of the day. It is funny to go from no contact to damn near hourly. I invited him to go with my on my trip for New Years which so far, he has agreed to. I don't believe it will go through but for now, the thought of what could be is absolutely exciting. It's easy to fall in too deep, too quickly with a man like him. The one you fantasize about night after night. But I am also a realist. (As if you all didn't know that..LOL) And I realize that I have to see the situation for what it is, as it is. I look at myself in the mirror and I don't see anything that compares to the leggy and attractive date he had at the party. However, I realize the extent and depth of my submissiveness captures the attention of many men. But in any case I want him. I want to serve him. Even if for just one night. I have so much more to this story but for the first time, in a long time I feel like holding back and holding my breath. For a little while...